I donít see myself as a real game developer. I make games because itís fun, and because I love games and I love to program, but I donít make games with the intention of them becoming huge hits, and I donít try to change the world. Minecraft certainly became a huge hit, and people are telling me itís changed games. I never meant for it to do either. Itís certainly flattering, and to gradually get thrust into some kind of public spotlight is interesting.
A relatively long time ago, I decided to step down from Minecraft development. Jens was the perfect person to take over leading it, and I wanted to try to do new things. At first, I failed by trying to make something big again, but since I decided to just stick to small prototypes and interesting challenges, Iíve had so much fun with work. I wasnít exactly sure how I fit into Mojang where people did actual work, but since people said I was important for the culture, I stayed.
I was at home with a bad cold a couple of weeks ago when the internet exploded with hate against me over some kind of EULA situation that I had nothing to do with. I was confused. I didnít understand. I tweeted this in frustration. Later on, I watched the This is Phil Fish video on YouTube and started to realize I didnít have the connection to my fans I thought I had. Iíve become a symbol. I donít want to be a symbol, responsible for something huge that I donít understand, that I donít want to work on, that keeps coming back to me. Iím not an entrepreneur. Iím not a CEO. Iím a nerdy computer programmer who likes to have opinions on Twitter.
As soon as this deal is finalized, I will leave Mojang and go back to doing Ludum Dares and small web experiments. If I ever accidentally make something that seems to gain traction, Iíll probably abandon it immediately.
Considering the public image of me already is a bit skewed, I donít expect to get away from negative comments by doing this, but at least now I wonít feel a responsibility to read them.
Iím aware this goes against a lot of what Iíve said in public. I have no good response to that. Iím also aware a lot of you were using me as a symbol of some perceived struggle. Iím not. Iím a person, and Iím right there struggling with you.
I love you. All of you. Thank you for turning Minecraft into what it has become, but there are too many of you, and I canít be responsible for something this big. In one sense, it belongs to Microsoft now. In a much bigger sense, itís belonged to all of you for a long time, and that will never change.
Itís not about the money. Itís about my sanity.